Saturday, July 31, 2010

.....

I miss you...most ardently

Too bad you have no idea

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

DESPERATION 2010

YG retreat has reminded me that the same desperation that drew me unto Him 2 years ago is the same
desperation that needs to draw me to Him today...Ive lost that passion, that curiosity, that hunger, that pure DESPERATION for Him.


Sermons/ Pictures     http://em-yskpc.org/multimedia/photos.html

Sunday, June 20, 2010

"danielle!! Why aren't you answering my text!!"

According to Merriam Webster dictionary, RELIABLE  is defined as:    

'Adj;  suitable or fit to be depended on"

I'm starting to realize how unreliable iam.    Which is not good. haha  >.<  
I strive to make myself available to people but also overfill my plate.  Balancing this does not last for long and soon Im stumbling all over the place.

Ill admit, there are many areas which I could improve on!  Specifically,  my phone etiquette.    I decided to always keep my phone on "RING" , so i can hear received text messages and phone calls.   For some reason,  I leave my phone on silent  ::shrug::     Suprinsgly,  people have told me I don't always answer text messages.   Thats why I love community, they always help point out the speck or plank from my eye.

Anywho, after they revealed this to me I decided to dig into WHY i do that

I realize that I tend to make a habit, that if I see a person often. i make one or all of these choices:

1.  Im busy, ill reply later----> even though I forget about it
2.  Ill see the person later, ill talk to them about it then
3.  Ill see that person online, ill talk to them about it then
4.  They will call me soon, so ill answer them then
5.  I read it..and think a response is not necessary
6.  I have no response
7.  im thinking of a response, and will reply later

yes....iam lazy =0P   BUT, its not because I don't care!    I do care, but i also need some help.   There are many different reasons for this and im well aware of them now.   Lets see how well I keep up this phone ettiquite!
Be PATIENCE as I re-train myself to not be lazy and answer texts, hahaha.

<3 Dani

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Silence

A poem I found.
Just wanted to share it, it spoke to me, and perhaps to you too

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Silence by Bradley Hathaway

What’s happening here?
I was once so alive and now I’m so full of dread and almost dead
Show me Your wounded head that is lead to communion with the Father

But where did He go?

His presence seems farther and farther away each day
but I’m trying so hard to steer His way
Yet still lonely and confused on this cold hard ground I lay

Speak to me wise mouth and say “it’s all good kid, it’s nothing that you did, and though it feels like I’m not here with you right now just be still and silent and listen for that sound..

Shhh..
Did you hear it?
Listen again.
Did you hear it?

That silent voice that just spoke nothing, that is Me, I’m listening to your plea with open ears
Counting all your tears flowing from your irritated eyes
Searching the skies looking for that hope that beyond there lies.

Oh you young worrisome sparrow, find rest
Lay your battered head upon My omnipresent breast and make it your nest
No strong cold wind could ever blow and carry you from this your home

Look around, see the life shooting up from the ground
Spring colors springing fourth and celebration of your trusting

It’s a constant process this is
Growing you into the person you are to become
But when you sense the setting of the sun know it is only rising and has just begun
Now go fourth, sing songs of faith, and lift up others in the midst of this race

And if you can’t keep the pace or lose sight of My face
Know that I’m always near so you need not fear

But don’t worry about all that right now

Just sit here and enjoy the peace I offer in My silence
When I am silent I am listening, and not abandoning.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Goal Fail

Im really failing at my goals for the summer!  Fail-age



I haven't completed one book from my list.  I bought Pilgrims Progress a week ago and Ive only read the introduction >.<  Instead, ive been reading books that aren't even part of my list:

           -Life Together The Classic Exploration of Faith in Community 
            by  Dietrich Bonhoeffer
                          - i have to reread the chapters to fully understand the
                             content.  Other than that,  I really like Bonhoeffer's 
                            explanation of biblical fellowship.
           - Forgottten God by Francis Chan
                         - I like how Chan is straight FW. He tells it like it is.  


I haven't practiced drums in over 2 weeks.   Its getting boring since I never get to play with people.   Playing with people allows me to apply what ive learned and even gives room for criticisms and improvement.   I just feel like im in a stand still with the drums.   I guess I should atleast practice once a week

Hanging with the Epic girls is fun.  A chunk of them are leaving by the end of June though.  So sad

The only thing Ive been consistent in is my personal goals.   The summer time has really isolated me and allowed me to relax and evaulate myself and my spiritual walk.  

Maybe I need to step it up, noh?    0.o

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

waiting

Waiting........
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Friday, May 28, 2010

Beauty

I deleted my other blog and just transferred my blog entries into this one, haha.  Actually the blog I wrote during SP

I rarely read fashion magazines anymore because it promotes this image that woman need to dress or act sexually to get a guy's attention. Im not trying to be high and mighty here.  Its just that reading/looking through these magazines really discourages and even distorts the mindset of a girl trying to be modest.  Unfortunately, Ive seen Christian women and even myself read through these magazines and conform to the world's definition of beauty. Its already bad enough that we have a hard time accepting our own self-image  , then you add the worlds unrealistic expectations.
  Yesterday, I caved in and started browsing through this makeup magazine.    I came upon this article about Dania Ramirez.  

What is your attitude about Beauty?
Beauty is owning who you are. It starts from the inside out...really accepting yourself, is to me, what makes you beautiful

I really like her answer.  Looking through the world's eyes,  beauty is unobtainable.  There are different definitions and perceptions of beauty.   I know this one place in Africa,  the more overweight a woman is, the more beautiful she is.   Pale skin is considered beautiful in Asia. Beauty is defined by how many peircings you have.   So many definitions!  No one can be beautiful in this world.

We need to accept ourselves, knowing that God fearfully and wonderfully made us.  It sounds really cliche, right? But this is biblical truth and sometimes these truths are hard to accept and believe   Most of us haven't accepted the fact that God finds us beautiful  no matter what. In the end,  I rather look beautiful to Him than to the world.